CAT: thoughts

  2018-12-05

Memory

Walking on the road this morning. Chilly early winter day. Rained for the last two days (or really just on and off of yesterday), and temperature has dropped to the point that I feel the winter smell.

What makes you sad? and makes you wonder? what makes you to have ...

  2018-12-04

Missing you in this city

Why? for some reason, I can always feel your existence, somewhere, around the corner, in this city. Walking on the street in this massive metropolitan, what's the odds that I could ever meet you again? Yet, I can't shake the feeling that you are somewhere, somewhere really close ...

  2018-11-16

Bad words

So Noah's school called yesterday. During lunch the kids at his table played truth or dare. Noah dared, a girl, to rape..... geee.. I was totally speechless and didn't even understand where he could have picked up that concept. Teacher said she felt this is a topic she ...

  2018-11-10

Domain knowledge

What is a domain knowledge? Domain knowledge implies a knowing of a specific area of knowledge, like plumber knows plumbing. It's quite easy to picture that everyone, or should say every profession, is a its own domain, thus has its own knowledge, which in true, in the same sense ...

  2018-11-08

Addiction

What is an addiction then!? and why is this word negative!? I think when we talk about this word, the implied message logic is that it is bad because it puts a person into an extreme condition, thus is not sustainable, thus is not healthy ← so there are quite a ...

  2018-11-01

A better world

It has been a fascinating thought to me — is human the only specie who thinks about leaving a better world for their children? This perception, or statement, has been widely used in many talks, conversations, lectures, debates, and propaganda, that by doing so and so, we are to leave our ...

  2018-10-29

Early morning

I'm getting used to getting up early to feed them. But I still can't get used to not thinking of you, when I'm awake, when I'm lying there in an early winter morning like this. Where are you?

I don't know where you are anymore ...

  2018-10-06

Law

It is, I think, the darkest moment in history, that I have been experienced in this great country. Listening to senator hearing for the first time last Thursday, and I was both impressed by the capability to grasp the core of the issue that these senators demonstrated, and the disturbing ...

  2018-10-05

Dictator, human language, concept

Here is a really interesting conversation with Noah. We have been watching a documentary (Soviet Storm: World War II — In The East.). At his age he is absorbed to the war scenes. Then, driving from his school we were talking about how Russia fought the war, he started saying that ...

  2018-10-02

Imagination is life

It has been said that what makes human superior to (or different from) other species on this planet is that human is the only one that can imagine; others operate off facts and reality. They do not possess the skill (or the brain capacity) to imagine a virtual world, something ...

  2018-10-01

How hard is it to listen?

I guess it must be hard. Noah completely tipped me off again today. His glasses were bent (slightly), and I asked him what happened. He said there was nothing. Then he said yes he was hit by somebody. Then the story turned out to be that he chose to be ...

  2018-09-26

Total Happiness

I was thinking. If we add up the total happiness of this world, versus all the grief, sadness, unhappiness, how would they come out to be?

I'm depressed. Noah is not doing his homework at school, and he is moving too much in class, as usual. It pissed me ...

  2018-09-19

Life without meaning

I don't know. All of a sudden while walking back from gym to office, I felt this moment of, emptiness. Really. It's a sensation I never had before. It's not a strong feeling, but distinctly there, that life is blank, meaningless.

I lost the touch of what ...

  2018-09-18

Burned out

I feel caught in a turmoil the last couple weeks that I had to deliver this BOM while I know nothing about, and had to deliver a schedule which many works have not even been defined, to determine a list of designs which no one else is looking at or ...

  2018-09-13

2nd Child Policy

This has to be the most disturbing talk I have ever heard so far, and this makes me very angry.

The talk is about China's new policy to encourage having more than one child, and these people talked about possible ways to turn the tide of China's declining ...

  2018-09-10

Hurricane

So there is a hurricane coming to NC. The curious thing, however, is that there is an air of excitement in the air ← everybody is rushing to grocery to stock up food, people calling each other just to exchange that Costco has run out of water since yesterday.. actually now ...

  2018-09-04

Accelerated anonymity

It feels that everything is converging. Sometimes I feel this is the sign of aging, too, that by being in 40s and started to understand just about every topic and have an opinion of them, every book I read and every talk I listen to start to convey the same ...

  2018-08-28

Too much trust

It has become a cliché that China nowadays are lacking trust. It has been talked about as if it would be the root cause of all disturbing social phenomenon as well as the one single cure of all social disease ← if only there were trust between people, between vendor and ...

  2018-08-27

On Noah's 10th birthday

Hard to believe, the guy is 10 years old now. I can still feel the day, the day that he was coming to this world, and the day it was a hot summer day, and I was biking between hospital and home. He came at 1pm, the same time when ...

  2018-08-16

Technology responsibility

This is a really a fascinating person. He is eloquent, which I have the impression that his mind runs million miles per second. You can feel it's churning at a speed so to compose the next line and the next thought, which now while writing, feels so different from ...