Feng Xia

  2018-11-01

A better world

It has been a fascinating thought to me — is human the only specie who thinks about leaving a better world for their children? This perception, or statement, has been widely used in many talks, conversations, lectures, debates, and propaganda, that by doing so and so, we are to leave our ...

  2018-10-29

Early morning

I'm getting used to getting up early to feed them. But I still can't get used to not thinking of you, when I'm awake, when I'm lying there in an early winter morning like this. Where are you?

I don't know where you are anymore ...

  2018-10-15

SPA: a cofiguration Dashboard

Project SPA Dashboard demo

Project SPA Dashboard is a weekend fun. The idea came from Lenovo Open Cloud project, in which we have developed auto deployment of a complex stack on three physical servers. Services are Red Hat software deployed on a RHHI instance. Previously we have maintained ...

  2018-10-06

Law

It is, I think, the darkest moment in history, that I have been experienced in this great country. Listening to senator hearing for the first time last Thursday, and I was both impressed by the capability to grasp the core of the issue that these senators demonstrated, and the disturbing ...

  2018-10-05

Dictator, human language, concept

Here is a really interesting conversation with Noah. We have been watching a documentary (Soviet Storm: World War II — In The East.). At his age he is absorbed to the war scenes. Then, driving from his school we were talking about how Russia fought the war, he started saying that ...

  2018-10-02

Imagination is life

It has been said that what makes human superior to (or different from) other species on this planet is that human is the only one that can imagine; others operate off facts and reality. They do not possess the skill (or the brain capacity) to imagine a virtual world, something ...

  2018-10-01

How hard is it to listen?

I guess it must be hard. Noah completely tipped me off again today. His glasses were bent (slightly), and I asked him what happened. He said there was nothing. Then he said yes he was hit by somebody. Then the story turned out to be that he chose to be ...

  2018-09-26

Total Happiness

I was thinking. If we add up the total happiness of this world, versus all the grief, sadness, unhappiness, how would they come out to be?

I'm depressed. Noah is not doing his homework at school, and he is moving too much in class, as usual. It pissed me ...

  2018-09-19

Life without meaning

I don't know. All of a sudden while walking back from gym to office, I felt this moment of, emptiness. Really. It's a sensation I never had before. It's not a strong feeling, but distinctly there, that life is blank, meaningless.

I lost the touch of what ...

  2018-09-18

Burned out

I feel caught in a turmoil the last couple weeks that I had to deliver this BOM while I know nothing about, and had to deliver a schedule which many works have not even been defined, to determine a list of designs which no one else is looking at or ...

  2018-09-13

2nd Child Policy

This has to be the most disturbing talk I have ever heard so far, and this makes me very angry.

The talk is about China's new policy to encourage having more than one child, and these people talked about possible ways to turn the tide of China's declining ...

  2018-09-10

Hurricane

So there is a hurricane coming to NC. The curious thing, however, is that there is an air of excitement in the air ← everybody is rushing to grocery to stock up food, people calling each other just to exchange that Costco has run out of water since yesterday.. actually now ...

  2018-09-04

Accelerated anonymity

It feels that everything is converging. Sometimes I feel this is the sign of aging, too, that by being in 40s and started to understand just about every topic and have an opinion of them, every book I read and every talk I listen to start to convey the same ...

  2018-08-28

Too much trust

It has become a cliché that China nowadays are lacking trust. It has been talked about as if it would be the root cause of all disturbing social phenomenon as well as the one single cure of all social disease ← if only there were trust between people, between vendor and ...

  2018-08-27

On Noah's 10th birthday

Hard to believe, the guy is 10 years old now. I can still feel the day, the day that he was coming to this world, and the day it was a hot summer day, and I was biking between hospital and home. He came at 1pm, the same time when ...

  2018-08-16

Technology responsibility

This is a really a fascinating person. He is eloquent, which I have the impression that his mind runs million miles per second. You can feel it's churning at a speed so to compose the next line and the next thought, which now while writing, feels so different from ...

  2018-08-03

Social media

The recent downfall of Facebook stock and its data privacy fiasco have been spectacular, and saddening. People are talking about data privacy as if it is an evil just releases from Gene's bottle, and of course, when a giant like Facebook shows a crack, millions are worked up to ...

  2018-07-24

UML

Finally a book on UML that makes sense to me (and is short enough so I was willing to read it, in one morning).

Milestone 1: requirement review

Everything starts with an analysis of the problem at hand. One thing learned and I'd like to clarify is requirement — it ...

  2018-07-20

A dream

I had a dream, as vivid as it can be, that I was walking next to you. You were wearing the black dress, the one you look so refined and elegant in. I reached out to your hand, but you retrieved it inside your sleeve, and only after a couple ...

  2018-07-13

Not feeling well, today

But this screenshot from kiki brightens my day ~~

I miss 米粒儿和米答应. Sometimes I feel really sorry that I feel like I have walked out of their life. Maybe she feels that way, too. But then I know I didn't. I didn't mean to, and I did what I ...