2019-04-17

History, choice

This is a tough one, actually, because the topic is really deep. In this aftermath of the Nortre Dame fire, the idea of restoring the damage immediately comes to everybody's mind.

Inevitably, however, there are always, two choices — to rebuild it as it was, or to build it as ...

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2019-04-15

Music

There is magic in music. There is.

I'm listening to this song, a song I have never heard of, and the singer I have never heard of. Yet, it makes me so sad, so sad. It's not the words, not the performance, not the story in a MTV ...

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2019-04-12

Frustration

Yes, I'm very much frustrated, last night in particular, that I'm getting fed up by the bullshift question seeking for decision, while at the meantime the other party gives little information, and has pretty much made up mind already of what they wanted to do — so hell, why ...

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2019-04-06

Stay connected

It is indeed quite a long time, 21 years. A friend of mine reminded me that, this year has been the 21st year since we knew each other. This is also the age of the internet chat I would say, because we met each other online, as an early adopter ...

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2019-03-24

Ten years

I'm scared. I had an uneasy sleep last night, worrying about a lot of things. In particular, I worried about time, about myself getting old. At age 46, it seems absurd that I'm feeling old. Yet, that's how I'm feeling these days, and it is not ...

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2019-03-22

Ordinary

Have you had a funny feeling on someday, that something is happening, to someone, someone that jumps to your mind at the first thought when you had that feeling? That's how I felt today. I don't know what it is. If looking at this line I just wrote ...

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2019-03-20

City life

I find it curious. Listening to a sentimental talk show on the Netease music app, the kind that a young woman's pretty face as the icon, and a soothing voice that suggest the picture you see is her, and slow, relaxing, late night style light music in the background ...

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2019-03-20

What is your song

Have you ever felt, that someday, there is a song, that makes you think of, someone? And this song, always, always, reminds of, of that person, regardless how remote and ...

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2019-03-15

Human grouping

How curious! Human, I do mean the general population whom I observe in various settings, always get excited by a thing, a place, another person, that has practically speaking nothing to do with him/her, but yet, they are so eager to make a connection with that thing, that place ...

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2019-03-14

Self-disciplined

This is pretty amazing — "Google killed 2.3 billion ‘bad ads’ in 2018, down 28% from 2017". I'm thinking the sheer number and complexity involves to make detection, and to take action against these 2.3 billion bad Ads. This is an absolute tech challenge, not to mention the ...

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2019-03-07

Self-esteem

I start to understand now, better perhaps, than before, that what self-esteem feels like, and why women have this anxiety of so.

With aging I start to notice that hair is becoming less, and this has been bothering me for the last few weeks when I started to notice it ...

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2019-03-01

Rain rain rain

Rain, rain, rain. Not quite actually. It's cloudy, misty, and is about to rain. Nothing really special for an early Spring day. Some flowers have bloomed, and some are on their way.

Like walking in this mist, reminds me the days I was wondering around in Suzhou, the college ...

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2019-02-21

What is engineering

I have been thinking, and probably being pissed off at the current status of the work, that whether the concept of engineering in my mind is the problem, or what I perceive is correct and it's the others who are not getting it.

So, what is engineering? I recall ...

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2019-02-15

Strange fate

Have you had this feeling before? that something is off, and things are happening in a strange way?

This is how I felt yesterday and the day before. Went to see a medical surgeon to take care of that bump on the back of my head. At parking lot, out ...

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2019-02-03

Tears

Caught a full bag of stars. Last time I had this moment was in 2004 just before I was leaving for Beijing. Fourteen years later, there they are again, glittering, haven't changed.

There must be an interlink between humans. I can't believe that a movie like Fahrenheit 11 ...

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2019-01-30

Forget someone

Forget someone, is hard.

Your image kept popping into my head this morning, on treadmill, on a path walked from building to building, in the sun, by the shadow of a tree, in the cold winter air, or warmth of a ray that brings one of billion-th of energy for ...

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2019-01-30

Time

Time is indeed relative.

I was talking to Noah about this this morning — why one feels the time in the morning always flies by? Theoretically time is uniform, it ticks by the second all the time, at the same pace. It doesn't change over the course of a day ...

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2019-01-25

Bizzare logic

U want know some bizzare logic? Here is one, from a terrible ridiculous argument w/ Noah's mom.

She said at dinner table that she has applied two charter schools for Noah. I then asked what are these two schools, and want to know more about them. We talked about ...

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2019-01-22

human and perception

I'm finding myself battling my own perception these days, a lot. Perception isn't a new topic to me. I have analyzed in hurt feeling whether it is a reasonable action for Noah's mom to feel hurt because of something I did, well, at least based on her ...

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2019-01-14

Taikang 2019

Dear friends of the 19th floor,

At time of departing, there is always something come to mind that I feel to speak and to write. So here it is. Take it as a "Thank you" note, or just a plain letter, from someone who had the privilege live with this ...

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