I'm having a lot of thoughts, of life, these days. I need
to write these down because they are interesting, and one day
when I lose my memory, I can read them and remember who I was. I
don't expect anyone to see, to read, to care about what I
write. I enjoy them. I'd like someday others will find these
points/feelings/opinions, agreeable. But either way, I write
what I feel, what I think, what I'd like to save for memory's
sake. I want to remember, even many are better to forget.
Yes, I'm very much frustrated, last night in particular, that I'm
getting fed up by the bullshift question seeking for decision, while
at the meantime the other party gives little information, and has
pretty much made up mind already of what they wanted to do — so
hell, why ...
It is indeed quite a long time, 21 years. A friend of mine reminded me
that, this year has been the 21st year since we knew each other. This
is also the age of the internet chat I would say, because we met each
other online, as an early adopter ...
I'm scared. I had an uneasy sleep last night, worrying about a lot of
things. In particular, I worried about time, about myself getting
old. At age 46, it seems absurd that I'm feeling old. Yet, that's how
I'm feeling these days, and it is not ...
Have you had a funny feeling on someday, that something is happening,
to someone, someone that jumps to your mind at the first thought when
you had that feeling? That's how I felt today. I don't know what it
is. If looking at this line I just wrote ...
I find it curious. Listening to a sentimental talk show on the Netease
music app, the kind that a young woman's pretty face as the icon, and
a soothing voice that suggest the picture you see is her, and slow,
relaxing, late night style light music in the background ...
How curious! Human, I do mean the general population whom I observe in
various settings, always get excited by a thing, a place, another
person, that has practically speaking nothing to do with him/her,
but yet, they are so eager to make a connection with that thing, that
This is pretty amazing — "Google killed 2.3 billion ‘bad
ads’ in 2018, down 28% from 2017". I'm thinking the sheer number and
complexity involves to make detection, and to take action against
these 2.3 billion bad Ads. This is an absolute tech challenge, not to
mention the ...
I have been thinking, and probably being pissed off at the current
status of the work, that whether the concept of engineering in my mind
is the problem, or what I perceive is correct and it's the others who
are not getting it.
Your image kept popping into my head this morning, on treadmill, on a
path walked from building to building, in the sun, by the shadow of a
tree, in the cold winter air, or warmth of a ray that brings one of
billion-th of energy for ...
I was talking to Noah about this this morning — why one feels
the time in the morning always flies by? Theoretically time is
uniform, it ticks by the second all the time, at the same pace. It
doesn't change over the course of a day ...
I'm finding myself battling my own perception these days, a
lot. Perception isn't a new topic to me. I have analyzed in hurt
feeling whether it is a reasonable action for Noah's mom to feel
hurt because of something I did, well, at least based on her ...
At time of departing, there is always something come to mind that I
feel to speak and to write. So here it is. Take it as a "Thank you"
note, or just a plain letter, from someone who had the privilege live
with this ...